wow it’s been a while alright
i’ve forgotten a lot of stuff that has taken place over the past couple of weeks, but i can recall the last few days, so i figure that’s worth recounting. i need to get back into writing these, since i have a lot of time on my hands now. here we go.
alright i fully realise i haven’t written in the past couple days but they’ve really just gone in a bit of a blur., „. school’s on the way very quickly too but here let me recap a few things and then i;ll post about today later on.
ok so it’s 1:32am and i’m really tired but my evening was shitty it was just really really really fucking abysmal
a year in review. i’m not totally done with it yet but i’m heading out to the furlongue walkers’ in about twenty minutes or so and i don’t have the time to sit down and finish it all up so i’ll make edits to it tomorrow and stuff but yes my year in (partial) review.
alright. not too much to write home about just yet but i’m working on my review of this year and i’ll post that this evening.
it’s already the 31st. i’m not doing well on keeping this diary thing up to date but here we go.
ahaaa i do try to write in regularly but yeah ok today was cool; i guess like there’s almost a bonus at the end of this entry????? idk i can’t think of another way to word that ahahaa
ok so it’s already the 27th whatever; i didn’t bother trying to purge again it seemed pointless so i drank a whole bunch of water and just was a total dork with gabe for a while and now i’m going to bed ok goodnight diary thing~~~
i’m too tired to make an entry right now; i’m going to bed. but i finished my tea cycle this morning and while i’ve stocked up on tea i haven’t had any since this morning so i’m going to go brew a pot now.
i ate a fair amount today; i had porridge for maybe brunch-ish time and also an apple and then for dinner i had a sandwich and my mother made me eat some pasta so i feel pretty damn queasy at the minute my stomach is just churning it hurts a lot
but ahhh yeah i’m still dropping weight which is nice i guess???? i don’t feel any different. but my mother isn’t heckling me about it anymore which is also really nice i guess. it’s not the way i wanted to go about things but hey less conflict is good in my books.
auntie rachel flies home tomorrow and then i’m hitting the boxing day sales. see what i can scavenge together. i would kinda like to get some books and maybe a videogame too. maybe. we’ll see. i also have to make those cake pops and stuff for family gathering on thrustday.
i really want to eat i’m so hungry.
i am just so so hungry i haven’t really been eating enough and i want to eat but at the same time i love this feeling of hunger as well it’s frustrating. i dfon’t know if i’m just being really destructive again or what but i want to eat and i also really really don’t i just don’t know what to feel really.
but hey i’ll wait it out a bit longer.
so yeah that’s it. i’ll write more at the end of tomorrow. night diary.
